I’m almost about to lose my virginity here. Let’s pray that I don’t.
Guy I met online, but haven’t met in real life wants to pop my cherry and teach me details about carnal knowledge almost in a style a la Virgin School. No he is not an old fart, he is actually sort of my ideal man, kind of really into casual sex. I hate my luck.
He is damn well-educated smarty pants, clean-cut yet quirky type of guy, let’s call him Ideal man just to be ironic. He has his romantic ideas, but he is focusing on getting into my pants, stat. He likes that I am a poor tomboyish virgin.
I mean, I am flattered that I am desired, I just wish it manifested itself in a different form.
Sex is really important to this guy, he let me know that, but he had this intrigue and the ability to hold a real conversation that kept me interested. I feel stupid saying this now, but I thought he would have a change of heart and take the relationships route.
Sometimes, I just sit and wonder. Why do I attract these types? I am a very demure person and don’t shove my sexuality down other people’s face. I am modest and friendly. When did that become a fetish?
I just want someone who understands the lack of sexual experience in me but doesn’t seek to change it so that I become a megaslut. I don’t understand why people are so into sex sometimes if they don’t seek a real relationship with the person. I mean I always have my right hand.
3 responses so far ↓
girlslashwoman // August 4, 2009 at 8:05 am |
I hate being a novelty. Whether it’s because I’m fat or a virgin. To me, it’s degrading.
But when you think about it… aren’t all women who receive sexual attention a novelty? Especially the superhot ones. You just can’t escape it.
What I figure is… hell, I’ve stuck it out for this long. I might as well do it with someone who I care about.
Please don’t do it
Still Searching // August 5, 2009 at 4:55 am |
Believe it or not I have the same problem with girls. They find out I’m not going to be the typical “I want in your pants now” type of guy and they try super hard to make it happen. Stick to your guns and don’t give into this creeper.
starshine1 // August 7, 2009 at 12:50 am |
Nice post. Don’t do it. I told this guy I liked that I was a virgin. At first he was so careful with me, even when we kissed, and acted like I had nothing to worry about. Then near the end of things, as his feelings started to wane, I think he began holding on to the relationship only to see if he could get sex out of the oldest virgin he knew. He asked why I couldn’t just relax and trust him. I feel like being a virgin is a burden today. Once they find out its like guys get hung up on being “first”. Ugh I hate it. Maybe the fetish has to do with being remembered. Everyone remembers their first.