I’m forcing myself to do this. I know, I should’ve done it months ago. But I guess I finally have enough free time to do that now.
I went out with the first guy who asked me out. He is great. Gentlemanly, handsome, intellectually at par with me. Do I feel sparks? Not really. But since he took the initiative I’m going with it. Besides, I could use a little physical intimacy. Life’s pretty stressful lately. He admits readily to having had many, many conquests, and hasn’t backed of yet knowing fully well I am a virgin. To be honest, since my feelings are elsewhere anyway, I wouldn’t mind something casual for now.
At first, I felt pretty crap about it. But I think it’s the only medicine for what I am going through right now. I know I’ve been a sappy mess as evident in my recent posts, but otherwise, it’s an okay time I guess. Growing pains, I’d call this…amidst figuring out what I like, who I am and what kind of people I like…it’s a time to be experimental and get further out of my comfort zone.
